oh baby i found his blog.and i know a lil bit more about him.
i can't be in love with him.i was thinking of him throughout the whole badminton game between me and my sis.but the biggy problem is that he's just not available.which makes me think again.i always fall for the wrong guy.he's either attached or simply "i-don't-like-you-and-i-never-will".arrgghh!!!
and when i was lying down on a slide at the playground while the kids played,i stared up at the sky and began to think:
over the last,say,three years,i've been into chinese guys.first was an uh...slangy chinese(urgh).next was a burmese chinese,i think.and after that was a pure chinese,i think also.and now,maybe,another chinese.3 years older,at that. (wait,i ain't racist.i just feel that some chinese guys are better than malays.)
i've been rejected twice(i consider the second one a rejection) and the third one is a total hi-bye friend which i believe that i have no chance with.and this one is someone i hardly see and only meet once in a blue moon.plus he's not available.
but why? he takes over my mind! he's like,every minute on my mind.when i went out with the kids,i was hoping we'll bump into him.but sadly,no.
i came to a conclusion after thinking so long and hopefully i'll be able to keep the promise i made.cus i can hardly keep promises that i made myself.like for example i promised at the beginning of this year that i'll study hard for n level.i did but not as hard as i was supposed to.so this promise i made,hard as it is to keep,let's just pray for the best.oh,i won't say what the promise is.i'll keep you guessing.
come to think of it,i have been too busy with school and stuff that i haven't had time to do the things i like.like what?sports,especially cycling!!! wish i could get my own bike.i hate that yellow bike.i look like a mother tumpang-ing her child.argh.i'm debating whether or not i should change my mind about the hp book.maybe i'll get my uncle to get me the bike.haha.a nice purple or blue one.
but there's still the silver bike which is not so bad.but the thing is the PUMP.tayar always pancet.so how to cycle?we don't have a pump and the white sands don't have that free pumping service anymore.i think i'll buy a pump with my own money.one of these days....
i've been playing badminton with my sis this week,which is good for me.i need some arm exercise.i am hundred percent sure that hari raya relatives this year will ask me why i'm so skinny.then they'll turn to my mum and ask why she never feed me properly.(that'll be hilarious.) and my mum will talk about my huge appetite,for a girl.haha.but hey,no matter how much i eat,i never,never,never put on weight.this week i tried eating late at night.cus people say you gain weight when you eat after 9 or something.guess what the result was? stomach pain lah. that's why i couldn't receive natasha at the door yesterday.was in the toilet.stomach was killing me the whole day.sorry nat.
anyway,i was thinking about ice-skating this morning.long time never go ice-skating.kallang leisure park closed and i dunno when they'll open again.i complained so much to my mum until she told me to shut up.haha.so the next place to ice-skate is jurong.damn.i think i'll go there after n levels.can bring natasha and rudy along or something.that'll be fun.haha.maybe ah.they'll have to agree.see first.but i really do miss ice-skating.if we go there one day,we have to take lotsa pictures.then i won't miss it so much.haha.i'm weird hey?
i ain`t crazy about you okay
give me a good reason
and i will be
