i love TRANSFORMERS!!!!
it was awesome.the movie was awesome.it was totally cool.the whole movie!
i mean,which thing in this world can transform into robots and disguise themselves as vehicles of all types?it never happens in real life but hey,you can let your imagination run wild sometimes.haha.
but the whole movie was awesome.friggin' awesome.i love it.now waiting for harry potter.whooo....
next up...
I FRIGGIN' FOUND THE TSUBASA CHRONICLE DVD!!!$29.90!!!FOR ONE BOX.SUPER!!!
there were two boxes so it'll be like somewhere 60 bucks bucks bucks.haha.hmm...i change my mind about someone getting me a harry potter book for my birthday.i want both boxes!!haha.wonder who i should ask.but hopefully it'll last till my birthday.then again.it'll be better to wait for the season 3 to come out.it'll be much much cheaper.and i still haven't watch season 3.darn!
okay...next up.
it'll be a busy weekend.there's the malay presentation thing to do which fortunately,i know how to do.just that i'll have to ask my maid's opinion.and there's the f & n coursework stuff.evaluation and all.the research and what? decision making and matrix?not the one with keanu reeves,duh.
[it's been a long time since i last saw keanu reeves.haha!]
next up...
hopefully i'll get to,like,write the story.cus there'll be lotsa maulid(s) to attend over the weekend.and the last,the very last maulid,will be at MY house.but that's next week.thank god.i volunteered to make cream puffs and chocolate eclairs for the makan-makan session.my mum said ok.it will be a tiring week.and with the 'n' levels drawing closer.miss norul said we have less than 80 days.crap man.[where?]haha.
next up...
i finally listened to the song 'When You're Gone' by Avril Lavigne.it's really nice though.reminds me of...him.i guess i must be the last person who heard the song.haha.weird.i'm always the last one in stuff.guess i'm loyal to the songs i like before listening to new ones.haha.
next up...
alot of things happened lately between my eldest uncle and my youngest aunt.it's like,this family is forever fighting.and it's always over money.i pity my mum.she must be stressed;worried about my grandmother who is in her grave right now.you would think it's weird that someone's thinking of their loved one who's already dead.but it's a real serious thing.there is a belief in Islam that when your parents are in their grave already,and when you fight with your siblings,your parents suffer in their graves;they BURN.imagine that.sounds scary,eh?but it's true.don't believe never mind.never asked you to.just information for your own good.haha.
my little sis is sick.cus of the warm weather lately.[it's not chickenpox,natasha.not to worry.i confirmed it with my mum already.haha.just the weather.]but it surprisingly rained today.with lightning!whoo...
let's see...what next?
oh haha.time to sleep.catch ya later.

know something?i want very much for a three month holiday.nobody knows it but i truly am suffering.i'd rather be home than in school.but never mind.just one more year.anyway time flies really fast nowadays.so it's ok.
i have one friend.
He is in my heart.
when i feel lonely
i look inside me
and He is there
always there

i'm freaking out now.
dunno how to do malay homework.
if i ask my mum for help,she will totally scream.
imitates mum:'ah bagus lah tu.last minute buat kerje.'
my dad will like go,'why you never do early early?why you never listen to your teacher first?if you dunno,ask.'
imagine that.
aarrrgggghhh....
i asked hazimah how to do [thank god she was online.and in the middle of the night!] and she said to cut out the cerpen or whatever and just collect.and the 8 ciri! i really dunno.i think i leave them out.or write on a piece of paper.i hope natasha happens to read this.provided if she hasn't done the malay homework.or else,i'll be stuck with damned low marks for the lisan thing.
aiyah.don't give a damn already.i'll just do anyhow.at least i do.i'll ask my maid for help.after her indonesian idol spectacular show is finished[she's obsessed with it.every year same thing.and she like's fandy.i like julian but he's out.*sobs*]


forget about yesterday
throw away today

found a story on the net.kinda nice but the english not too good.it sounds like a singaporean story though.i enjoyed the story even though i took some time to figure out some parts.



Nature

Tree

===

The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.

I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.

She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know whose the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.

I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf

===

During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal.

I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?

Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay

Wind

====

Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.

Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away

It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree

I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.

gawd.school starts next week!it's so fast.it's TOO fast.one month seems like a week.wonder if there's any homework.well,there's the physics but i didn't do.dunno what to do actually.and...i dunno what else.
anyway,umie aisyah's coming over tomorrow.my sis is goddamn lucky;she's away for camp.i have to be stuck at home and await the perfume that's gonna make me choke for god knows how long.but hey,it's not so bad.she's just gonna tumpang at our house to rest and urm...visit before she lead the maulid tomorrow night at...somebody's house.plus i'll have to wake up real early tomorrow.wonder if she can see through me and know i've been waking up real late for the past weeks.ohmygod...i can't believe school's reopening!i don't wanna go back.it's the goddamn stress.my mum's gonna start pushing me again.there'll be extra extra classes.maths,physics,chem,english,whatever...and not forgetting projects.aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!i'm starting to hate school.even though i get to see him.it seems like that's all we're gonna be.smile-at-me-and-i-smile-at-you-back friends...STRANGERS.the end.

just finished watching mean girls.pretty nice show.kinda funny too.oh and that jonathan bennett is one hot guy.haha.i mean,he's got that killer smile you could die for!and he looks a little like zac efron[is that how ya spell his name?i really dunno.]
anyway,i finally found th time to write the story.thank GOD tomorrow there's no class.die man.so tiring.actually i only managed to write one page but that's at least better than nothing at all.considering it's already in the middle of the holiday.hais.i have no idea how to continue at all.the best story i've ever written was about D.A.R.K.that story was truly awesome.i think a part 2 will come up.i've already thought up about what will happen next.more love,more suspense,more adventure.hahaha.wait,i wasn't supposed to talk about the D.A.R.K story.anyway,the current story is kinda...okay.not too bad.it's just got more humour than the D.A.R.K story.and more of an evil character.but i still think christopher pike writes better than me.well,duh.he's a professional.i'm just a...well,beginner.can't say pro cus i started only in sec 1.oh crap,i'm not sure if i will continue this story bussiness when i graduate.i can't find anymore of that looney tunes foolscap paper to match the other pages.the strawberry shortcake one is like...urgh,so pinkish.
just realised that the jap eiga is tomorrow,not today.omg my sis is watching nacho libre.i think i'll join her.

back again.my mum went to maulid.i was looking through my pictures on the com when i found a few pictures of a certain someone who could actually make it to be a model.i'm not sure for y'all but oh well.these were pictures i took of my sis at the siloso beach at sentosa when i was there with my family.

been a long time since i posted.why,the holiday's like hell.i can't even use the com to blog.my mum's out right now.my kid sis is asleep[thank god,finally!!!] and my sis is bathing so i can use the com for a while now,just to blog.anyway,before the school holidays started,i asked my aunt if she could help me with my jigsaw puzzles.i have two frames for the 300 pieces size puzzle.but it's white.and i have two 300 pieces jigsaw puzzles[one is cardcaptor sakura and one is the aristocats,the cute kittens].my aunt said okay and until now we haven't started.i was too involved with badminton.suddenly i like badminton.it's just too fun.hopefully i can play it for the rest of the year.build some muscles.haha.as if.
oh and i found this japanese anime that is so cool.at first i thought that CLAMP created it but i was wrong.i researched about it just today and realised that it wasn't by CLAMP.did i mention the title? well,the anime is called 'witchhunter robin'.kinda like 'cardcaptor sakura'.but its totally different.the main character,robin,hunts witches.reminds me of harry potter.haha.but the witches are bad.the series haven't got that far yet.yesterday was only the 6th episode.so i didn't really miss out that much.but the problem is that it's on at 12.30 in the middle of the night.i have to wait up for it.and because of that i wake up like 10 plus and get scolding from my mum.haha.anyway,it's a real cool show.last night it was about barbie dolls.kinda freaked me out.haha.but the dolls were under the powers of a witch so it's okay.the opening song and the ending song also very nice.though a little sad.haha.but i like the titles of every episode.last night the episode was called 'raindrops'.i don't know why i'm so into this japanese stuff.and i also plan to catch the japanese eiga on saturday-hana &[something].about FRIENDSHIP.
oh yes lately,i've been having strange,really strange dreams.i don't really know why...or what they mean.the first one was really creepy.some kind of virus spreaded around my neighbourhood and i was the only one who didn't get infected.the ones infected turn into zombies or something.the one who saved me from getting infected was that chinese guy on the 6th floor whom i used to like when i was in sec.2[i think.i don't quite remember if i had a crush on him.haha.he was in mr.chong's class after all.]his whole family turned into zombies,and he ended up getting infected too.creepy creepy creepy.i think i forgot to read my prayers before i slept so that's why i had nightmares.the second strange one was about him and an idiot.the third one was the idiot and natasha.the fourth was STANFORD!!!& WENJIE & NATASHA!!!& MDM RIAH!!!last night was the malaysia trip.kinda funny.dunno why my dad ended up in a bra shop.gawd.
anyway..it doesn't matter anymore.i've gotta go.my mum's back.here comes the nagging.

whew.
sure is tiring today.played badminton with my sis.it was fun.but i tripped on my feet and landed on my butt.still,it was fun.hoping to play badminton again.my sis is a terrific opponent.
anyways,i took a quiz today on the net or something.the title of the quiz was 'what is your love song?'.i didn't have much to do so i took it and it turned out that my love song was 'wonderwall' by oasis.i searched for it and listened.quite nice sia the song.not bad.but the singer's voice sounded like he's bored or something.haha.
oh and i found the two-pin adaptor! so happy.it was on my room switch.i mean,the plug thingy,that three pin thingy.i was like,oh my god,it's been there all along.no wonder i couldn't find it on my bed.and with the half day camp coming up on this tuesday.it's like from 9am to 5pm.why couldn't they just have a proper camp.we did one last year and heck,it was awesome.its so sad that we don't have a proper farewell camp.haha.but well,sounds like the juniors have something up their sleeves.we're having activities by the seaside.i dunno what but sounds like fun.i hope i'll be in a good mood on that day.if not...die!!
alright,my cuzzie's pestering me again about playing the sims 2.haha.dont mind,boy.he's sitting next to me actually,reading whatever i'm,well,typing.haha.aiya aiya...gotta run.catch ya guys another time.

p.s which reminds me,where did those people who spammed my tagboard get my blog address from.it's a real big mystery to me.but i don't wanna find out.they're real jerks.haha.hope you're reading this.