i'm kinda feeling sleepy right now but i'm actually forcing my eyes to stay open.alright so today was not such a bad day.well,it was tiring later but at the beginning,it was all kinda fun.shuyi,natasha and me finally went to the malay KFC and boy,did we have fun.we actually went all the way to white sands first for shuyi to draw money.then we walked down to the fish pond to have ARNOLD'S. that's the malay KFC.haha.eat eat eat.talk talk talk.fun fun fun.all the way till 2pm there....i think.we took our time to walk back to school cus there was club meeting today.dropped by at a neighbourhood playground.natasha freaked out(and i mean,really freak out) when she found the floor of the playground covered with red ants.got out of there quickly.headed towards school and shuyi said she wanted to belanja us ice-cream.i was too full so i sadly turned down the offer.haha.(i think natasha was too full too!)shuyi bought an ice-cream and we stood under the block opposite school.waited for a few minutes then said bybyes to shuyi.(and i think she was sad to see us go.hehes.)
so meeting...wasn't all too bad at first.at the first part,zul smacked hakim really hard(and i say really hard) with his monthly planner book.the sound was like twack! and really loud.hakim's left ear turned really red after that.gawd,zul does has this thing for beating people up.but only when they annoy him.hahas.after that,the sec.4s got separated.natasha and zul had to do the inspirational 'project'.as for me,i'm under thiha's 'project'.every week we were gonna have like,sharing session for the first half hour.i was supposed to do next week's sharing but i was then moved down to the third week or whatever.thiha suggested sharing about the act 3 incident in sec.2 but i didn't want to cus my voice was kinda soft.i hate to stand in front of everybody also.so during this discussion,hakim came to join us(actually just to disturb us lah).he made this remark about me or something(i forgot) and i smacked his knee hard. he went owowow like a baby.haha.one leg got marrow the other leg no marrow.haha.whatever.then miss chiam came up with a task for me.the club's vision.oh like,whatever.i do also she never read.hais.so at the end of the day,i was pretty tired,no wait,i was very,very tired.and miss chiam actually held back the sec 4s and 5s.long long long speech.then hakim broke a chair.kinda funny but he could have got hurt.he blamed me cus i was behind him.haha.but never mind.i asked mdm riah for permission to possess some cds.and WOW,she gave me this whole folder of cds plus another bag of cds.gawd,i can make so much movies with these.i love you mdm riah.haha.and thankies.
aaaarghhh.i actually took so long to post just this.and it's already so late!!!gotta run.byes!!

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i don't know what i'm doing right now.my back aches so much.came back about an hour ago from accompanying my sis go jogging.actually,i'm not the one jogging.she jog,i cycle.which is kinda relaxing for me.i prefer to cycle.i totally hate to run,especially if i have to take photos.it absorbs alot of energy from me,making me feel more tired.and i did a little research for the story.actually i was just planning to jump the whole chapter and get to the valentine's day fight.cause if i drag longer,the story would be so so and so boring.(oh crap,i've developed my maid's way of speaking english.haha.)anyway,today was urm...fine.maybe,i think.not sure cause i was pretty tired.actually monday doesn't sound that bad cause we go to school late.which is like,cool!!!!
now,what did i want to say?oh haha.i did something bad today.but i don't feel guilty.okay,here's the possibility:her him might be breaking up with his her.
but we don't know what's really happening.perhaps someone posed as the guy and pretended to break up with her,giving her the wrong idea.someone could do that,really.oh well,it's none of my bussiness.
that's all for now.i'll blog some other time.

today the club meeting was half rubbish.the two games we made the lower sec play wennt fine.but the shirt designing was what made me pretty upset.i can't draw and i really can't draw.i felt completely useless not contributing to the club with my own piece of work.so i was like,with my pencil and paper,what should i draw?i don't like designing stuff.if you tell me to write a story about the club,i would.but not draw something about the club.so i just sat there,completely clueless on what to do.i saw the others and their efforts on the board.but my own effort is crunched up in a ball in the wastepaper basket.but i tried not to let that bother me.besides hakim was there.he was really funny.my mood brightened because he was there to fool around with us.please note:us refers to NATASHA,WENJIE,ZUL,STANFORD & ME.THIHA was NOT there with US.that really pissed me off alot.he was like with those girls.wenjie said thiha was always like that.he chooses his own people.but well,i noticed that thiha was alone at his own little corner.WE were totally having fun with hakim at our own BIG corner.haha.i don't know what i mean though.
i guess that's all.besides being bothered about him,i think that was all today.oh and no,i am NOT upset about thiha.no worries.

he melts my heart with his smile.he fills me with never-ending happiness whenever i see him.i think of him everyday and i just can't get him outta my mind.i don't know him that well.i don't know anything about him,about his past,about his everything.i don't know anything about him at all.and yet i'm so in love with him.the way he walks,the way he laughs,the way he smiles.i love everything about him.
i don't really want to continue like this.i don't feel good about it.i don't even know if he knows my name or anything about me.all i know is i think that he knows that i'm in photography club.which is kinda obvious already cause i was carrying a camera when i met him.but the way it all sounds,it just drives me crazy.i don't think about him during lesson time.but whenever i see him,during recess or after school,i just go crazy.but not that crazy.
still,i don't even know if i'm like,in love with him or something.if i don't see him in one day,i'll start to miss him already.but sometimes when i see him i go all excited that i can't control myself.and sometimes i just want to avoid him.i just want to avoid him,not see his face and not let him smile at me.but in the end i'll regret it so badly that i could possibly cry.
guess that's all.about him.

here's another one of my videos.

i don't know why i'm so sick of everything.something's wrong with me and i know it but i just pretend not to know it.i just feel like hitting my head against the wall.to wake myself up or something,i dunno.and i don't wanna know.i came home yesterday in a bad,bad mood and i don't even know why.i don't understand yesterday's meeting.i don't understand what i was doing either.i don't understand who i was angry about.i don't understand who i was trying to become.whoever that was yesterday,wasn't me.i don't understand many things about yesterday.but i know..i don't want any answers.
i didn't see him yesterday.all i saw was the JERK.

crazy man today.first the school changed the timetable again.not again.and we end everyday at 2!and it's like,sheesh,why 2?it used to be 1.30.now it's 2.but the best thing is still there,we go to school at 8 every monday.haha.oh well.that's the way it always is.and so the day dragged on.during recess i saw him.and HER him.hahaha.
right now i'm waiting for the welcome to the black parade movie to finish saving before i move on to the famous last words one.i can't believe the first videos i made of the mcr songs were live.okay i admit,it does sound a little terrible.i can't even make out a word.haha.but the photos and the transitions were all awesome.only the song.
and today was damn tiring.had to do the photo collage which,i must say,stressed natasha out alot.she was so stressed because of the time constraint and all that.i bought the drinks and the cheese toast for her to cheer her up a bit and let her cool down a bit.but the funny thing is,earlier in the afternoon,we were supposed to pick up her mcr posters from a guy called louie.(i got the posters over the yahoo auctions since natasha wanted it so much.6 for $12.crazy.) well,i actually thought that louie was a girl name and natasha assumed that it was a girl.we were on the way to the pasir ris interchange when the 'louie' person called natasha's handphone.she made me pick up.so i picked up and boy,i almost peed in my skirt.it was a GUY!!!!! and i was like what the...natasha and me got scared ah.a guy okay.don't play play ah.it was all starting to sound like the sec.1 period.natasha got freaked out,a little.we reached there then we walked around.there was a guy(like nerd ah waliao) standing around but he wasn't the one.then we(natasha,shuyi and me)spotted the correct guy(in a white singlet,waliao).i didn't wanna go up to him,he look like paikia,and he looks older than us...haha.then me and natasha just go.paiseh sia.pay then walk off.gawd.oh yes,lesson learnt from here: louie-guy name. louis-girl name.aaahhhh!!!!!
oh my god.tomorrow's the big day.if tomorrow goes well...(which i doubt so)i'll take a modelling career..muahahahaha.wait.i was just kidding.oh god so tired.

crazy man.11.50 pm right now and i'm still on the video.my butt's really in pain because of sitting on the chair for the whole day.and it's so damn warm.okay.new year.so far not bad.just that there's this little guy i can't get my mind off.he's kinda nice but kinda cute too.he smiles at me everytime he sees me...and i would smile back too.yesterday was the best though.saw him alot of times.hmm.speaking of yesterday,the seniors in the club disagreed with thiha's idea of the powerpoint slides for mark's presentation.it was indeed long(3o plus slides,are you kidding me?) and we only have 5 minutes.hais.after all,mark's inexperienced in this kinda thing and it was his first time.aiyah..never mind lah.let them do what they want.
aaaahhhh.....i just can't get HIM outta my head !!