aha.i realized today that i can't keep that promise.and it's only been one day.i haven't given myself enough time.but no,i can't keep the promise at all.and like i said,promises i made to myself,i can't keep.i'm awesome hey? haha.no promises.....haha.

i found out he likes high school musical.haha.same here.crazy for it.but he likes vanessa.i like zac.well,people always like the opposite sex.haha.wonder if that's true.oh,he had wanted his hair to be like zac's that's why he grew it long.well,he overgrew it anyway.looked like a girl's hair.but now he's better.

speaking 'bout hair,i cut my hair yesterday.well,not cut but i thin.my mum keeps complaining about how thinck my hair is and how there's so many strands of hair on the floor.i got fed up and decided to cut my hair.it's not so short,the lady just trimmed the bottom and some parts of my hair.then she thin.so now my head feels alot lighter.but the biggy problem that bugs me is the fringe.because she thinned my hair,my fringe went a lil too short.but no probs,i got the solution for it.heehee.

my legs are itching to cycle to pasir ris park.i think i'll get my dad to stop by at the bicycle shop at white sands and buy a pump.then can go for a final cycle tomorrow morning before i officially stop all activities due to the coming n levels.but i still can go cycling after n levels even if it's during ramadhan.i hope i can survive through n levels during ramadhan.

thursday,i think,is the first day of ramadhan.too bad it's a school day.i can't go the mosque to pray terawih and do'a for forgiveness and welcome the "bulan yang suci".or maybe i should.then i can pray for n levels.

it's weird.i'm weird.everytime i enter the lift,i keep hoping for it to stop at the sixth floor and he'll enter.i told my favourite aunt about him (she's on maternity leave now that she's given birth to nabilah.complained that she's darn bored at home.so i always called her.kesian kan.she's a working lady.must have been too used to the office.bet she misses her friends and boss.) and she told me to forget him for the time being.n level is more important than him right now.she says education only comes once in your life (my maid said the exact same thing) and it's up to you to decide your own future.i told her about how i want to pursue a music career.i told her about the NAFA and how i saw the diploma for music.there were two parts for that diploma.performance or teaching.i told her i target for teaching and she told me to go for it.and then told me to forget him.and she pointed out so directly that he has a girlfriend and i stand no chance so might as well forget it.man,she didn't have to remind me.argh.but still,i love her for being so understanding.nabilah's so lucky to have a mother like her.

i also told her about the london thingy.told her by then i'll be seventeen.i'm old enough to explore the world by myself.or rather,with my friends.my mum can't coop me up in the house forever.i'm young.i want to explore the world and see things i've only seen on tv.and london is the perfect place to start.i mean,there'll be so much to see.and shop.and take pictures of.speaking of pictures,i so want the Canon EOS 40D.not 400D.i like the 40D because of the circular scroller.i like it alot.i don't know why.i was so totally in love with the 20D camera but when i saw the 40D i was like,ahh!!! i want that.it's heavy (740g) but i don't mind.i could be the photographer for my mum's cupcakes and kuih.yeah,that'll be a great idea.

hais.london.beautiful place.and natasha says we could hop on the train and head to paris or something to have a look at the eiffel tower (is that how ya spell it?).i think.i don't recall what the place was.really,it's a rare opportunity!