i can't lie to myself and say that it was a great and awesome day.but it was.the first quarter and the last quarter of the day.in between are what i DO NOT want to talk about.lets see.the first quarter was terrific.i never expected him to ask for my help.oh man.why should i use `him` anymore? he knows anyway.but then again,its the people who might bump into my blog.i have to protect his identity.
he was all smiles,all laughs,all happy.and he felt `strong` today.just standing next to him takes my breath all away.it felt like i'm flying or something.i'm so glad i stayed in love with him.i'm so glad i didn't succeed in forgetting him.beacuse if i did,i wouldn't be able to feel this happy again when i'm with him.
but i don't know why.he was smiling away when i gave him the file.natasha told me that zul told him to wait for me.i think.or something like that.but i don't know,the way he smiled.it's like as if he knew something was up.and my eyes were friggin' RED.haha.embarrassing.except that...he wasn't the reason why i cried.instead,he was the real reason why i'm so happy.

today is the day
that holds my last chance
my last chance to stand next to him
my last chance to sit next to him
my last chance to walk beside him
my last chance to tell him everything
my last chance for a last goodbye

i am not brave.i don't think i am.i think i am a coward.a big one at that.because i didn't have the guts to confess to him face to face.i didn't dare to tell him that i love him.but right here,it's easy to say it.

I LOVE YOU !!!!!