a disastrous morning and an unforgettable evening

disastrous morning:

i know how it feels now if you were to lose your eyesight.because i went through it just this morning.i was so ready to start the day,because everyone were wearing their ethnic costunes.not all,but most.so it's like,i was looking forward to what the teachers were gonna wear.mr yap looked smart though.i guess the whole school were excited because of the colourful clothes everywhere.principal sort of got angry with us.gave a speech and all.and we had to stand through it for like,15 minutes or so.i was like,tired.my stomach was squeezing and i don't know why.my legs were also aching.during the national anthem,i couldn't stop moving.i was like half in pain. then during the pledge my vision kind of blurred,then it darkened.i couldn't see anything.then i heard mdm fazilah said that we have to stand through the racial harmony day message.i was like,oh man.i couldn't see! i turned around to natasha and kind of reached for her.i told her that i couldn't see.then she said,'can you see this?can you see this?' and i was like,'i cannot see!!!' i was totally panicking. my vision was a total blur.and i was at a loss of what to do.i just kept saying that i couldn't see.i don't think i was being dramatic because it was a very frightening encounter.i heard mrs chee say whats wrong and all.then natasha explained to her,i think.my mind went all blank.i was really scared and i was crying,because i could feel my tears coming down.i was thinking what i was gonna do with my life if i can't see.mrs chee and natasha kinda pulled me to i don't know where.there was a step or something and they told me to step over.but i slammed my foot over whatever it was.they guided me to a bench and told me to sit down.by then the blurness was slowly fading and i could see mrs chee a little.i tried blinking my eyes.mr chong was there,marking something.mrs chee gave me a piece of tissue to wipe my tears and blow my nose.then she and mr chong asked me questions.i DID have my breakfast.two pieces of bread with kaya and a cup of water.i just suddenly got giddy during assembly.i was so happy when i regained my vision.mrs chee told me to sit at the benches along the corridor in case i got giddy again on the parade square grounds.emily asked if i was okay and all.mrs diana passed by during the speech to ask if i was okay.i said i was.then mdm riah sat beside me and asked why i was sitting there.so i told her ah that i had a 'momentary blindness'.she told me that i would be okay and not to worry.then miss norul sat beside me and asked if i was okay.i almost cried in front of her because i was still shaken by the experience.she was the only teacher i felt most comfortable around,besides miss chiam and mdm riah.i told her what happened with my eyes and she told me that the same thing happened to her during her cca time.i felt comforted that the she had the same experience once.but i was still terrified.what if it happened again?this had never happened before.when i told my mum,she said maybe i was stressed.i'm thinking now,maybe i am.my maid said i should bersyukur that i still could see.she told me it was a warning to me by Allah S.W.T.maybe i had done something wrong and He was trying to warn me.she said that since i got my vision back,it meant that Allah still loved me.she told me to ask myself: what if Allah completely took away my vision? what if i could no longer see my parents again or see my siblings amd my friends ever again? what if i could never see the world ever again if Allah didn't love me anymore? she advised me to take care of my eyes and watch what i'm looking at.the former is of course,what i'm going to do from now on: wear specs and do the eye exercise ,that i learnt in park view, everyday. the latter, i'm not sure what she means.my mum told me the same thing to.that it served as a warning to me.

unforgettable evening:

botak had a party at elias green.it was the best birthday party i had ever been to.and it was the first time i saw the guys half-naked,swimming in the pool.same with natasha.i won't drag with the details of the first part of the afternoon: walk around and natasha showed me around,the pond,the river,the frog island.it had been where her childhood started.she showed me where she lived and where she fell into and where hanes fell.sounded like a very fun childhood.we circled around the pool and botak and the guys threw this cute,small water balloon at us.after that, waded in the children's pool for a while.then sat around and watched the guys play in the pool.somewhere near late afternoon,i succeeded in pushing danial in the pool.hah! and he took revenge by spraying water at natasha and me.then we ate and played playground.well,not playground.played see-saw.took pictures,which were very nice.natasha tried pushing danial into the pool but couldn't.i almost got pushed in the pool by natasha and danial,at different times of course.then natasha tricked me and said that she saw my 'ex'.i panicked because he lived there.then she laughed.very funny.her 'ex' was also there.haha.so we're quits.haha.i pushed danial in the pool again.he took revenge by pouring icy cold water at me.i dunno what happened after that.i think natasha and me sat by the pool,just chatting.then we took revenge and poured water at danial.actually i started first.he didn't do anything though.natasha and me were at the see-saw when danial attacked.i am ALWAYS caught offguard,when i'm not aware of the things happening around me.natasha saw cus he was coming from behind me.i was attacked then she sprayed water at his face,to avenge me i think or maybe to have some fun.i chased after him and threw my bottle of water at him.now that i come to think of it,we wasted alot of water.haha.there was a commotion though around evening.the 'fish' caught of the day who is actually yin han.very cute lor the guys carried him.i was watching them when someone poured really icy cold water down my back.and it made my whole shirt at the back wet and part of my jeans.natasha got some i think.god.it was danial again.after that,jiahao and myron biked into the children's pool.kinda cool but lucky got no guards around.anyway,overall,the party was fun.but the thing is,i don't know why some people thought i like danial.sure,i chase after him to get my revenge but that didn't mean i like him,even if we went home together.tuh!lemme get this straight: danial can be nice but i don't like him as in that kind of way.no thank you.

P.S I've suddenly got the craving of listening to Thiha play 'Far Away' on his guitar.I dunno why.Just had that craving when I was walking home.